So I have incredible anxiety right now. I have NO idea why. I should be excited about this whole trip...I mean I am, but for some reason I am terrified. Maybe it's the fact that I'm leaving behind the life that I knew. I don't know. I am sure all of this drama will go away when I'm in country. I also have to deal with the fact that my tuition for grad school is due soon and I have to leave that in the hand of my mum to make sure it's all squared away. This scares me...not that my mum isn't capable, she is, but I like to do it all on my own and I can't now.
Everything will of course fall into place, it has to, but for now it's scary as hell. I've got everything in order except for my camera which I will probably get right before I go. I think my ultimate fear is getting to immigration and them saying "Sorry Ms. Finch but we can't let you in." I worry that they'll say I don't have enough money or I don't have the right papers. I am over thinking it...it's what I do. I hope that while I am overseas I can focus on letting my overthinking tendencies go. My life right now isn't exciting and I don't have cool or cute pictures to show you.
I never knew that I had this fear in me. I always used to jump right in. For some reason, starting this new chapter in my life, terrifies me.
Cheers
Tavia
xoxo
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